On failure
Dear Reader,
I've let you down. I promised myself that I would write almost every day, or at least a few times a week, yet here I am, weeks after my last post. I've also failed you by not engaging with your thoughts and ideas. My RSS feed reader has been closed for days, and now I have 2,000 posts to catch up on.
"Sure, you haven't been replying because you've been focusing on personal development, reading, and learning new things," you might say. But no, I bought a 200-euro course and couldn't even get past the first chapter.
"Okay, then you must have been taking some time off, resting, or dedicating time to important things like your new house," you might think. Not really. The rain has kept me from playing tennis, but that's not the whole story.
I've been struggling to maintain the work-life balance I promised myself. I've been pushing myself to teach my students at college and then rushing to my newsroom job. There's this constant feeling of missing something, of failing to meet commitments. I tell myself I'll deliver something by Friday, and then it's Thursday night, and I haven't finished it.
Bearly Significant was created as an effort to make things better, to give myself time to be me, to express my thoughts and finite ramblings in an infinite space. But over the past month, it's become just another unchecked item on my to-do list. It shouldn't be that way.
Thank you for your patience and understanding.